Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, maybe so, maybe so. Still can't figure out the cats... or the gnomes... or the pants... I guess that's pretty much everything.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, No thanks.

So Totali, do you ever have shifts?

What sort of phantom shifts?

Do you remember any of your dreams?

Ok, definitely. Yeah, that's what I was interested in. So ears and tail eh? I've only had a tail 2 or 3 times... you're lucky.

Definitely!

Hahahahahahahaha, you need to read my thread more often.

Hahahahahahahaha, When I'm in a shift, a mental shift really, I know that I raise my ears and they twitch too.

Those are really neat! What I find odd is that generally speaking, they sound very similar to the ones which caused me to come here in the first place!

Hahahahahahaha, you've already had one I think. "Hmm...you know the sort where you kind of feel like you're a wolf, but you know you're not and you can feel yourself moving into that 'mode'?" That's basically what it is.

Here's a copy of my very, very, very first post ever:

White Wolf wrote:

As a result of my increasingly frequent dreams, I've finally been compelled to register and become involved with this forum. I guess a little about me, I'm a college student in Southern (North) Florida who could have cared less about werewolves about 5 years ago. Around that time, for no known reason, I began to have dreams about becoming a wolf every couple months or so. I used to joke around with my friends about them, but recently (within the past year or so), they've become more and more frequent to the point that I have one every two to three weeks. While they're all different in details, generally they've all been fundamentally the same in that each deals with me discovering that I'm a wolf (in some cases through a family member) and typically I progress through a transformation before waking up (sometimes not). A couple of months ago it aroused my interest enough that I found this site, and here I am now posting.

I guess a lot of people come here seeking to find out who they are or something like that, whether they're a 'werewolf' or not. I'm really not too concerned with that, because I've been thinking a lot about it recently and I've concluded that frankly, only I know myself. I could hardly expect a bunch of folks on the internet whom I don't even know (yet) to confirm or deny my identity based on a series of checklists. I guess what I'm more concerned with is discovering the answer to the question "Why?" Mostly, I'm concerned with my dreams, as I am probably the most frequent dreamer I know (it is rare for me to go through a night without I dream that I remember in the morning, even years later). If I can discover their meaning, then perhaps I can figure out why this subject so frequents my consciousness. Is it a family thing? Frankly, I have no idea. Am I a werewolf nut? I wouldn't have considered myself one, until this year after these dreams began with such frequency.

Whatever the case, I'm really glad to be here with a group of people who share a common tie. I look forward to talking with each of you in the future, and recounting more of my dreams as they come to me. For now, I'm going to go ahead and go back to bed since my class is over...

Here's another:

White Wolf wrote:

Sorry I've been away for a couple of days, I've been really busy studying for finals this week. It's one of those annoying situations where I've got 3-4 classes where what grade I get solely depends on my final, so it's pretty frustrating. But hey, whatever, at least I've got this place to hang out a little and take a break.

I figure now's a good time to post another dream that I've had, this being my most recent wolf dream of about 1 week ago. This one was actually kind of random, I was going around my house doing something (it seems like I was transitioning from another dream that I don't remember). Anyways, I opened up the door to my garage and there was my dad standing next to a gray wolf with the garage door open in broad daylight (strange, eh?). Anyways, I walked out there and asked something to the tune of "Dad, what are you doing?" As I walk up to him and he goes on something or another about how our family has the curse of the wolf in the blood or something and that when we turn a certain age (I'm assuming he meant 20, since I just turned that a couple of weeks ago) the curse is realized and we have to transform into a werewolf. He went on saying that he was there to help me with my first transformation. I then went on to transform, and during that process, as usual, I woke up. I just wish I could have one dream in which I'm actually a wolf for more than two seconds, but it was interesting nonetheless...

White Wolf wrote:

CS, that's interesting that it looked like that. It makes complete sense though with your explanation, a reflection of your "evil" self. Yeah, that Lost thing is really creepy. It's not so scary in its outright (and frankly I'm not all that easily scared), but the thing that makes it mildly disturbing is that randomly, all throughout the series, you'll hear this high-pitched clicking noise very faintly while the people are walking around in the jungle, and in the background you'll just see it fly by without the people ever taking note. That combined with the fact that it rips people apart from time to time make it slightly unnerving.

As for your questions... let's see... I would have to say that I've probably had 5-6 dreams in total where I've actually turned into a wolf for some short degree of time. 3 have occurred within the past two months or so, with 2 of those 3 being before I joined this forum. I still haven't posted my latest one (from last week), but I will eventually once I get time. An interesting note though, in every single case, I didn't just "transform" into a wolf, but required someone (sometimes a wolf) to do something or tell me something to do it. That could be telling me it's in my family, or my destiny, or biting me (in that one case), or whatever. As for wanting to be a wolf, that's a great question, I guess 'THE' question. My answer probably would have always been 'sure', even before these dreams started increasing frequency-wise, but I probably would have laughed the notion off. In fact, I know I would've because every once in a while, maybe once or twice a year when I'd have such a dream, I'd bring the topic up with my friend and we'd ponder it. But recently, as these dreams have become more frequent and have been driven to the forefront of my mind, that question has become more and more a 'defining' one. If I were given the ability to transform at will, my answer would be 'yes'. If I were bound by the moon, the answer would still be 'yes'. And as I feel my self being drawn more and more towards a panultimate decision on my behalf, I would still likely even choose 'yes' if it meant the temporary loss of my 'human' consciousness. As for permanent, that is an issue still at debate within me. I do have a feeling though that it might indeed be a family thing (not an ability to change albeit), but perhaps a psychological one. I'm still very interested in learning more about my ancestors and their personalities. In fact, it's solely because of all of this that I traced my lineage back to 17th century Mary's Land!

Well, I'm off for now, but I really look forward to seeing what both of you, and everyone else, has to say before I get back!

There's another but I can't find it.

Hahahahahaha, I'll try to.

Hmmmmm... brownish grey.

Hahahahahahahaha, the avatar may have had something to do with it.

Ok, on gut then, black.

Hahahahahahahaha, what, tell me.

And as you know, I'm about to head off.

Hey, that's awesome!!!!!

Seriously, why isn't that you're avatar???????

Goodnight Totali!

You need to... like tonight!

See ya tomorrow!

Neat!

Hey Totali!!!!

How are you today?

I'm really digging the new avatar! It's awesome!