White Wolf wrote:

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, just trying to reignite childhood nightmares... seems as if we are making real progress here... *jots down a few notes.

Well, maybe you're not the nice happy guy I pictured you after all.
Maybe you're that one guy sitting on that throne in the Kamelot music video I showed you.  You know, the one with the long hair and paint on his face.

Ah, well then to start with the public shifting. It happens about as frequently as non-public ones. As I mentioned I have had a rise in the amount of them. I find that my theory about meditations being the release and then not having it increased it may be faulty. I find that as I have grown more comfortable I have had more. This is actually a bit worry some. I found that previously that I would have minor phantom shifts throughout my life when I was quite stressed, now they occur and some stronger ones when I'm relaxed and comfortable. I am afraid to find out if they get stronger or if mental ones will occur when I have a terrible stress time. Also I have been wondering if I am becoming more comfortable if the shifts really will continue to become more frequent.

And pretty soon Vin shifts completely, mentally, for good...

I do find it to be quite interesting. I still find that shift I had on Friday to be quite intriguing. As I find that I have a memory of the event, that memory is in the frame of mind of mental being shifted. It seemed like there was a stronger sense of Id but there was still Ego as it were, just different proportions, very action driven instead of thought as it were. Also I think it was quite a bit of that residual REM and it building with the two types of shifts. I actually found it to be quite enjoyable, however, it would be quite difficult to deal with that in a public space. Not only did I feel like a wolf but I was acting as one.

I think my logic still has enough control to ward off a shift in public of that magnitude until I could get somewhere "safe" as it were. Although as of yet I haven't had a mental shift in public so I wouldn't know what would happen. I actually hope that it does not occur. As for for good.... who knows.

Well, I'm signing off. See you tomorrow Totali!

Totalimmortal wrote:

It would kinda suck if it happened in public...it would be very, very awkward.
It's never happened to me either...but the thought scares me to death!

Well I know how you feel, very much. I have noticed more and more shifting as I have grown comfortable and I don't even want to know what would occur if I were to have a strong mental shift in public. I really do not.

I'm in agreement there.

So any other questions or topics tonight, my friend?

Yes I actually have. I am a very open individual, however, this topic I keep very closely guarded. It feels very strange to have a "skeleton in the closet." I find that a few people who I'm comfortable with, however, they are not close friends, that I wish to tell. I know though that it would be unwise to do so and thus far I have abstained.

So here is one, have you ever had a drive to show wolf-like affection?

Yeah that sort of behavior and such. I have periodically however, I have abstained from acting upon them. A random thought, it would be interesting to do a psychological study or even just behavioral study on Therians. As they not only have the mentality of humans, but also of an animal. I think that would be very interesting to look into.

I would really like to have some more information as well. Something outside of the internet as it were. I think it would be very nice to meet some individuals who have been around for some time as well. The fascinating thing is how much it falls on personal belief and understanding of these very similar experiences. I really do not know how the mainstream would take it. I know the Therian community isn't hiding per se, however, at the moment if you go to tell someone as they don't know about it there is a lack of prejudice. Then your explanation sets it up and that is good, if television took hold of it that could generate quite a bit of misconceptions. So I really don't know how it would work. It could easily go both ways.

Hahahahahaha. Yeah I would rather the latter to occur.

Well I find that I am falling fast into sleep, so have a fantastic evening, my friend.

I'd be a bit nervous about a documentary or show about Therians being on TV. Things can easily be misinterpreted not only by the media, but by the general public too. I think what Total said about the "omfg is that kind of like a furry" could be a very potential outcome. That would be a bit annoying if thats what the mainstream saw therianthropy to be, but I think at the end of the day it wouldn't affect me much; I'd still keep myself to myself generally, whether it was a successful or a failed documentary. The therian community isn't exactly hidden, just as Vin said, its just one of those things that not many people know of, as it isn't exactly a widely used term at the moment.
I would really like to see sources outside of the internet though...that would be something very interesting to come across.

How are you Total? I haven't been on the cafe much, so haven't had chance to talk to you much either! I hope everything is going spiffingly for you!