Thank you.
I think we just frustrate ourselves if we refuse to acknowledge when we are hurting.  Plus, in doing that we are focusing on the pain instead of going through it.

I was born from a long bloodline of werewolves.

lol a "strange fashion"?

XP yes

I do not entirely understand a lot that is said about astral shifting, therianthropy, and such. I never really had a whole lot of that.

Trying to get back on topic, my (change?) happened after a traumatic event, which is the only time in my life that I truly lost my inhibitions. I do not want that part to ever happen again. Some bad things happened, but I did not have a problem until several days later. I do not know if this is the specific cause, but I would be willing to place a bet on it.

So far it has been six years, and I still have little control over it. Sometimes it comes instantly, while other times it takes quite awhile or does not work at all. I also tend not to have the typical wolf emotions taking over, rather I have a torrent of power that makes it easy to loose yourself in. It is a rush of adrenaline that blots out unnecessary thought, but I try to suppress loosing my focus as much as possible.

Hell though. I really do not know much about it. I have never met another, so it is hard to compare. Always helpful to look at what other people put and share back. On the other side, I have seen some strange things and learned a few interesting bits of information and some useful tricks.

I am sorry if I was unclear. While I am decent at English, I still have some problems with it. Physical. That reminds me: Does p-shift stand for physical or phantom? I seem to get that confused. It never tends to happen by accident. Sometimes it happens when I do not want it to, but that is only in times when I probably sub-consciously want it to occur. For instance when I am hurt desperate, or very angry.

I do not really have these phantom shifts, but it does help to change or partially change if I visualize. However, the feeling when I am close is a really strong almost itching feeling that travels in lines. Is this similar to what others feel when they are phantom shifting? And if I understand right, is phantom shifting a feeling of changing without actually doing it? Also, if so, If you phantom shift can you interact with objects as it you were changed, or is it more of a feeling?

I am somewhat shy about talking a lot about it, but suppose it is necessary if I want to get any information in return.

Thank you very much for this reference.

"p-shifting=physical...ph-shifting=phantom"

I think some people are simply using it incorrectly, which is why I was confused.

"SENSE SHIFTING"

I only still somewhat understand. There are heightened senses after a partial change, as well as the heightened senses from the rush of adrenaline. Some people talk about these as part of ph-shifting (if I understand it correctly). I have never had that without a partial shift, with the exception of the adrenaline benefits.

"DREAM SHIFTING"

I have not done this any more than normal.

"ASTRAL SHIFTING"

I am not sure I entirely understand the concept of an astral plane. There are pockets that mirror this world, but are not the same, and I am not sure if that is it. While there I get a somewhat dreamlike feeling of grogginess. They never move, although sometimes I have more trouble returning to them than others.

On a separate note, there is also what I refer to as "traveling" (for lack of better terminology) in dreams. There are other semi-physical location that can be traveled to repeatedly, with people inhabiting them (One man that owned a shop in one I have been to a few times somewhat explained it to me) It is more like dreaming that what I think of the normal astral, unless I am confusing terms. It is not entirely a dream though, because with some effort, I can pull small objects from there into the waking world. I have yet to manage to take most objects with me in the first place. For example, I have tried taking money on several occasions so I could buy things, but it never works. The only things I seem to be able to take (and not always) are personal objects that I am very familiar with. Those "dreams", while bound by rules, are not the same as the normal laws of reality that the "pockets" are.

I am only looking for some input and terminology. I do not understand a lot of it.

"MENTAL SHIFTING"

I do not really have a wolf persona, other than if you could describe some aspects of my personality "wolf-like", but I think that would be true for anyone. The closest is that when shifting, the experience is so intense that I have trouble maintaining focus and reasoning, rather than giving way to whim and emotion. I also think that this may be why I have trouble shifting sometimes, in that I do my best never to completely give way to emotion and instinct. As for the wolf part, as I said, it is not there.

"AURA SHIFTING"

This I understand. The catch is that anyone can do this, especially with clairvoyance, self-discipline, and self-understanding.


"phantom shifting"

One of my original questions still remains: Can you actually physically interact with anything when phantom shifting?

Also, does it actually enhance any abilities rather than allowing heightened focus?

As I have said, it is hard for me to share, but in the interest of information and learning to get some more insight I will do my best.

To be honest, I am  not entirely sure. I think that it has to do with an event that happened a few days beforehand. I truly lost my mind in anger with a traumatic and violent event. (If you want to know more, I will send you a message, I do not want to post it here.) Afterwards I was so angry that I could not stand it. I went between a angry simmering that was on the verge of exploding to a screaming rage. Thinking back now, I know why I was mad, but not to that extent. I suppose that it might have been because of holding it in all those years. I still do that now, and I think it might be why I have trouble shifting at times. After days of being enraged and not caring about most things, I went back to my simmering attitude and went to a local hospital. I walked around for hours for no reason, hating everyone I saw only because I was so angry at existence itself. Someone eventually tried to talk to me and demanded bossily to know where I should be, and being so angry I shoved them into a side room and shoved him hard. He hit his head and was out cold. I was still so angry, but finally stopped myself for a bit, realized what I was doing was wrong and pointless, and left.

Ever since I got in my first fight, I had this feeling during and afterwards. I have always asked people about it, but no one else has ever told me they felt the same thing in similar situations. It is somewhat hard to describe. The roof of my mouth and teeth tingle, along with the space right between my eyes. Depending on how intense, it spreads throughout my body. It is a combination of tingling, itching, crawling, and burning, but does not hurt, and is not overly annoying.

I am not sure if that feeling has anything to do with this, but the feeling was going on this entire time, and intensely. The longest I had had the feeling before was maybe an hour, and this had lasted for days and the strength of the other feelings paled in comparison. Somewhat regaining some sanity, I drove to a desert that was a few hours south, found a rock outcropping to lean against about duck, and transformed. It is strange. It does not hurt, or feel good, simply strange and somewhat uncomfortable. My skin split and sort of unfolded as I grew and changed. I felt a  rush of adrenaline, but not with the other sort of neurochemical induced feelings I had before, but rather the exasperated yet alert and good feeling from heavy running. I sat there for a long time, feeling a lot better only because most of my anger had subsided.

I have never really fret about it much. It was not that upsetting, and I am still myself. I do not have the sort of one time rage I felt then, or at least can keep it under control. I only want to learn more about it. A lot is confusing, so I want to learn and figure out more about it.

Siverwolf wrote:

So..... you had a shift here where you -felt- as if your skin split and unfolded as you grew and changed into your animal?  -oO,-

I know what you mean here about having temper rages and all.  I've felt the same way sometimes as you discribed.

Siverwolf.

I do not blame you in the least for not believing me. I would have believed it either without good proof.

Ignoring that, part of my point is that this was beyond a temper rage, I was out of my mind. Moreso, it was not simply a little worse than normal. I do not loose myself in emotion. That was the only time since childhood.

Yes, it is a very dangerous level to even visit.  I would not live there if you paid me.

I enjoy it also.  It's release, but still dangerous and not a state I'd like to ever remain in forever.

Remain in it forever?!!? I can't imagine that a creature could sustain such intensity for long without blowing quite a few neuronal fuses.

Not to mention blood vessels %)