That could be a little scary.

Hehe, one of my friends was spending the night at my house once, and she started talking in her sleep. It was pretty funny! All of a sudden she pushed herself up and was like "Pentagon Seven..." and then fell back down. I wasn't sure if she was faking ('cause we did that a lot, lol) so I was whipering "What? Dude... Are you awake still?" And she never answered. So I told her the next morning She didn't remember doing it

Oh no, you're quite normal with this company. I think.

Oooh! I get to tell about a freaky experience I had at acupuncture! Thought I'd relate it because someone might be inspired to go try it themselves, and that could only do good ah reckon. Unless you're deathly afraid of needles. If so, don't go near there.

I've always been interested in alternative health therapies, and once when I had some Qi Gong massage done, a guy tapped a certain point on my chest repeatedly, and for some reason I had the urge to cry. I've known I've had some pent up anger/sadness in me for a while, and the fact that there might be a way to release it outside of your standard western therapy (cause let me tells ya, I've found most therapists to be quite useless for me) interested me greatly.

Since Qi Gong is a form of Traditional Chinese Medicine, I thought I might give Acupuncture a try, and see if any more success might be had. In the first diagnostic session with her, I got more out of the experience than I ever got in any session with a therapist. Then, in my first real session, she decided to do some clearing work on me. This involved sticking an acupuncture needle at the top of my head (ow, btw, that hurt) and one in each hand in the webbing between my thumbs and index finger, and one in the top of each foot. These points are supposed to help with pain relief and particularly in the foot point, with letting go. (they're also not supposed to hurt going in, so she kinda stuffed up there)

I'd been considering studying this myself, and she mentioned that she'd done her study with a bunch of loans for living expenses. I was pondering this, as she left me alone to concentrate on breathing and just relaxing for 20 minutes. I could feel the gentle pulsing and rippling of energy in my right leg and left hand, which felt quite nice.

So I'm sitting there, thinking about loans, when I close my eyes a little more tightly and wonder why they're suddenly very wet. I blink and wipe away tears that seem to be forming while I'm just sitting there, thinking about loans. Now, I know loans are sometimes painful things, but there was no reason my eyes should be crying, especially when the loan wasn't MINE. Next thing I know I have the deep urge to really cry. So I do, repeatedly, in between giggling because the water from my tears kept going into my EARS, which I couldn't stop because the freaking tissues were on another table across the room. I cry/sob for the rest of the session, and I don't even know why. I mean, I know I've buried stuff for a long time, but no images, no memories came with the tears. I was just sad, and needed to cry.

Anyhoo. Anyone seen Office Space? When I finished up wth that session and wandered off to work again, I felt just like that guy. Goofy and relaxed. It was really an amazing thing. I think it's quite true that emotional imbalances can cause some terrible injuries to your body, that folks can bury stuff deep inside and it can turn into things like chronic pain, disease and cancer. The fact that my body just voluntarily let this stuff go, without my mind having to go back there and try to relive it to release it fascinates me.

So, highly recommended!   ... unless you're deathly afraid of needles. Baaad idea in that case.

I totally understand   There are other methods though - supposedly beating up pillows helps. But then, I find myself feeling stupid for doing so.   I don't hate pillows - it's hard to get really angry at them.

euck...yeah, I'm pretty afraid of needles, as I've mentioned before...the whole thing with the blood test where they kept sticking me in the arm and couldn't get anything to come out ....

I do tend to bottle up my anger though.... which may not entirely be a bad thing, since I take a lot of crap sometimes and I do have a temper, I've just learned not to show it.

Although if I have a bad week or something, I start venting....

I was having a bad week at school a few months back and I started putting a little too much anger into my everyday actions....I started breaking things unintentionally....not like smashing things, just breaking them while I was using them....

Like our front door....I ripped the inside handle off.

And I broke a ceiling tile in half when I kicked a punching bag a little bit too hard at karate

My cousin once hit my sister, so I beat him up.
I'm not too proud of it, but I was having a horrible week and that just made me explode. *sigh*

That was the only time I've ever beaten anyone up, though.
I mean, I've thrown fists but it usually ended after that.
But, as I had said before, I had a rough week and I had already had a couple of anxiety attacks.
And well...you just don't fxxk with my mother or sister, you don't.
Also, my cousin was a beast anyway.  Ugh.  They spoiled him rotten.  He just disgusted me to no end.
But what disturbed me about the fact that I started on him was that it seemed more like I was letting my anger at the world out on him, and not just hurting him because he hurt my sister.  Hmmm...maybe I should find a decent way to relieve stress?   ehhh...

Yeah.
I've never been in a real fight before though.
It's like, someone really pisses me off, I turn around and do something about it, and they look shocked since I'm usually so timid and it ends.  And I do nothing else.  And I haven't even done that very often at all.  It only happens when I've been bottling up my feelings for a long, long time and I finally can't take much anymore.

if I got into a true fight, I don't know how I'd do.
I guess you could call the thing with my cousin a true fight, but he didn't hit back or anything so I dunno...

I like to listen to my music and attempt to relax when I'm angry, but I find the best means of venting are basically through writing, which I've taken up as a habit of mine.  And as I said earlier...my English teacher sees potential in me and gives my writing A's all the time, so I must not be bad at it.   An example of my writing is in that 'the origins of our characters' thread in the "Live" Games section, which contains the origin of my roleplay character that I use basically.  I wrote it pretty quickly though so there are a few errors...especially in the description department.  Repeated myself a bit.

Yes, same.
It'd be interesting to get a novel published or somethin'.

yeah.
Maybe it would end up a best-seller and I'd be richer than JK Rowling.

HAHAHAHAAAaaaa....

one can dream.

Howlitzer wrote:

euck...yeah, I'm pretty afraid of needles, as I've mentioned before...the whole thing with the blood test where they kept sticking me in the arm and couldn't get anything to come out ....

So you're afraid of needles? *Writes that down* Hehehee, I just happen to know a few nurses.

Howlitzer wrote:

I kicked a punching bag a little bit too hard at karate

You do karate??? *Goes to find a martial arts teacher FAST*

I don't really care for doctor's needles, but CLEAN tattoo needles, I like. I have two tats of my own, one on each shoulder.

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I wanna know what your tats are too Zage!

I don't think I've written someone into a story yet. But my English teacher was irritating me last year (I hated her, but now she's alright, lol) so I drew a picture of me as a giant wolf and her underneath about to get what she had coming. She yelled at me all the time, lol.

I don't ever wanna get a tattoo because what if like, a few years after I got it, I look at it and think, "omfg I don't want this thing anymore" and I'm stuck with it?